As I have been getting more sleep, I have become a bit less angry. However, I feel more sad. I was talking to my counselor about this last week and she asked me if it was sadness that I am feeling or simply a quieting of my mind. I have been trying to be more aware of what it is I am actually feeling and for the most part, I think it might be a quietness that I have not had in quite some time. My mind has been racing for so long, feeling guilt and pain, anger and anxiety, that when I can calm down I don't know what to do with myself. So this weekend, I tried to keep everything pretty mellow and pay attention to my thoughts (or lack there of...). It was nice, peaceful. It has been an entire week that I have come home from work feeling even tempered. It is nice not wanting to tear someone's head off or pick a fight or simply not exist.
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