And for my next trick.....

When my son was alive, we wanted to move out of our house into a rambler/ranch style house. But, between the hospital stays and worrying about disinfecting someone else's germs, it was not task we had time for. I still want to move, but right now, our house isn't worth what we owe. There are good and bad sides to this problem. The bad is that I want to move, I don't feel as though I can settle down in this house knowing that, hopefully, in the next few years we will be moving along. Now, the GREAT part is that I can become even more of a blog-stalker and follow the ideas of all of the creative women whose blogs I have posted. I have always wanted to live by the ocean in a cottage, but I will not leave my baby boy or our families, so we will stay in Utah. This does NOT mean that I can't still have a beach cottage house. So until we move and probably still after, I will look to find inspiration from these women while creating a home that will be a sanctuary for us. I have already begun to repurpose and repaint. I am checking garage sales and thrift stores to find vintage and chic items that will help to create this space. I have always loved white and these blogs show that you can never have too much. Plus, all of the white reminds me of Heaven, thus making me feel even closer to my son. When I find my camera, I will begin to post pictures of my projects so far.

Steps I am taking to give me strength on this path...

My sister sent me a book called "29 Gifts in 29 Days". It is about a woman who was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis at an early age. She spends the next months of her life living in a prison of her own self pity. Her neighbor, who is a spiritual healer, gives her a prescription to give 29 gifts in 29 days. By fulfilling this treatment, she is learning how to open her heart to the world and appreciate all that she has been blessed with instead of only focusing on what trials she is facing. I am not through the entire book yet, but I am getting the point and I am trying to make an effort to live my life this way as well. It is not that I think my life is miserable, I know that I am very blessed. But sometimes I do become lost in the sadness of being without my baby boy and all of the moments I will never experience with him because he is gone. Instead, I am working to remember the amazing gifts I have been given because of his life. Tomorrow will be his second birthday.

I love you Bridger!

Another blog...

In recent months, I have been searching more and more for peace and simplicity in my life. In this search, I have come across several websites that help to settle my mind. Whether it is reading about beach cottage decor or tips about living a simple life, they all help me to continue on this journey in life. This blog will record the things I am doing as learn to enjoy this life instead of run through it.